So we talked that night like I said, then he called again two nights later and we talked, then he called again two days later. That last day while talking he asked if I wanted to go to ice cream. I thought it was a joke but wasn't sure and didn't know what to say so I said I'd call back. I did and said ice cream sounded good and then he said we should really go.
So we did and it was so fun. He even tried to test me to see that I really was doing much better with my skills and medication. I did good, was calm when I might have otherwise have not been. He had ofcourse kissed me within 5 minutes of us being together and told me he loved me, things he had already said to me two nights before. I thought we had made up and had a plan that we loved eachother and wanted to be together, and he was still scared it would go back, so we would take it slow so he could see I was better without potentially getting hurt. Not being in a relationship being single, and not being with anyone else and just being in love. Sounds like a great plan right?
Not to his friends. He hung out with them the next day and I don't know what they said to him but that night he texted me saying he couldn't do it. He was too scared of getting hurt and wanted to trust me but couldn't and still loved me. We went back and forth for probably a half hour, his best friend was still over probably convincing him, which likely wasn't hard since he was already scared. End result, we said bye and I don't understand any of what happened. All I know is that I'm tired, sad and I miss him. I love him.
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